Carter had put the kittens down and had tears pouring down his face as he faced the bed startling a little as he felt Emmett’s arms wrap around his waist. He tried to quickly wipe the tears from his face though they were quickly replaced by fresh tears. “W-What?” He asked brokenly as more tears fell. “I just… w-what other firsts did I not get that I thought I did? I thought I was your first kiss and boyfriend and first time…”
Keeping the other boy close to him, Emmett, kissed the back of his neck, feeling a twinge in his heart when Carter started to cry again. Gently turning him around in his arms, Emmett carefully wiped the fresh tears from his cheeks, biting his lip, whispering, “I..I’ should have said something..something before, baby..but that shouldn’t matter, what should matter is what we have right now, that we’re together right now, love.” He murmured softly, resting their foreheads together.
Carter was still crying as Emmett rocked them and e grabbed the remote shutting off the music. “I have a headache, I’m going to go to bed.” Carter said climbing out of Emmett’s arms. “You’re welcome to stay the night here.” He said and walked over to the kittens picking them both up. “I’m staying in Steven and Devon’s room.” He said as he turned to head up the stairs hiding the tears that were pouring down his face. He would never be Emmett’s first and that was killing him. Carter knew himself, he knew how he thought and he would constantly compare himself to Emmett’s first.
Emmett frowned when Carter turned off the music and climbed off him, watching him as he went upstairs. He knew he shouldn’t have said anything, but he wasn’t one to lie to Carter, not after what he had done, and what had happened. Rubbing a hand over his face, he silently went up the stairs and followed the other boy to the room he was staying in. Biting his lip, he quietly walked in to the room and wrapped his arms around Carter’s waist from behind, whispering, “Baby…”
Carter sniffled as he nodded and curled into Emmett. “I was just being stupid thinking that I could be your first.” He mumbled into Emmett’s chest as he battled the lump in his throat. “I love you, but I just had this illusion of us being each other’s firsts…” He said blushing as he felt tears in his eyes. “But I can’t blame you, I mean you didn’t even know me back then…” He said and sniffled more. “This is stupid, can we not talk about it anymore?” He asked curling up more on himself as he spoke staying on Emmett’s lap as he curled up on himself.
Emmett shook his head, running his fingers through Carter’s curls, murmuring, “Hey, no you’re not stupid, baby..everyone goes through that stage..especially when it’s their first time. I did when..” He stopped himself from continuing, pushing those thoughts out of his head as he concentrated more on his boyfriend in his arms. “I love you too, you know that..” Emmett furrowed his eyebrows, as he used his sleeves to gently wipe Carter’s tears away and nodded his head, whispering, “It’s not stupid, but alright we don’t have to.” He spoke softly, his arms tightening around the other boy as he held him close, rocking them lightly.
Carter nodded sadly as he curled into Emmett feeling his heart sinking as Emmett told Carter that he wasn’t his first and he chewed his lip as he kept looking down he took a shaky breath and closed his eyes tightly feeling stupid to think that he could have been Emmett’s first. Emmett was gorgeous and intelligent and any guy would be lucky to have him in that way or be wanted by him. Carter was just… well Carter. He hadn’t really had much experience even really dating before Emmett and he was starting to feel immature compared to the other boy.
Emmett watched Carter carefully as he said that he wasn’t his first and bit his lip. He saw his face and wished he hadn’t said anything. But he was never one to lie, especially not about this. He had already fucked up with Carter before, this was his second chance, he didn’t want screw up again. “Hey hey..:” He spoke softly as he kissed the other boys forehead, holding him closer, “Just because you’re not my first, doesn’t mean you’re not special, Carter..I’d rather be your first then anyone else.” Emmett admitted, running his fingers through the other boys curly hair.
Carter giggled as Emmett pulled him back down to sit with him and he nodded softly. “Is that weird?” He asked blushing. “I just picture the movie scene with the rose petals and candles and love songs.” He blushed brighter. “So I got the music.” he smiled softly as he cuddled into Emmett’s embrace and nuzzled into his neck listening to the music playing softly. “Hey Emmett, I know you are my first time, but am I yours?” Carter asked softly.
Shaking his head, Emmett smiled more and chuckled softly. “It’s not weird at all. It’s normal to picture your first time. Mine was never like the way that I pictured it at all.” He admitted, his smile fading a bit before he shook his head and kisses the other boys cheek. “Well, you have some interesting, not bad though, taste in music.” Emmett teased lightly and raised his eyebrows and bit his lip at the question. Shaking his head, he cupped Carter’s cheek in his hand, rubbing his thumb along his jaw. “I uhm…my first was when I was 14.”
Mom keeps trying to message me, asking if I want to talk…Does she not get the point when I screen `15 of her calls?
Carter kissed Emmett back smiling softly letting out his own little hum. “I love you too.” He murmured back to Emmett. He smiled brightly when Emmett agreed to make love to him. “You are so incredible Emmett!” He gushed quickly and kissed all over Emmett’s face. He grabbed a remote and turned on the stero. “I brought my own cd.” He said letting the love songs play softly in the background. “They help when I work on covers.” He said before kissing Emmett’s lips again kissing him as much as he could.
Emmett smiled as he heard Carter hum and chuckled softly, closing his eyes as Carter kissed him all over. “I’m not that incredible, you know that, babe.” He pouted when Carter got up, but watched him curiously and raised an eyebrow, a playful smirk on his lips. “You made a cd for a night like this?” He asked, taking Carter’s hand and tugging him gently, so he was able to wrap his arms around his boyfriends waist, leaning up and kissing him back.